Even after he left, I continued to lie there, stretched out across the bed with my hands behind my head. He’d worked me over pretty hard so I still feel him everywhere – my shoulder is still pulsing from the impression of his teeth. I listened to about five or six tracks, staring up [...]

I got way too high. I hadn’t smoked hash in years, but since I’ve been letting my guard down, forcibly, it felt well-timed. Plus, I have a fairly decadent history with this man, usually of the porn/whisky/cuntlick kind. Smokable resin fit in.
I usually avoid all forms of THC because it makes me turn [...]

I wrote this May 29, 2006:
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I just had carnal relations.
Technically, it was borne of spontaneity: we exchange a few words on a street corner while waiting for the light to change, and then he asks me out. Normally I get skittish, but this time I just say yes. I give him my email address and [...]