I’ve been promiscuous and I’ve been monogamous and I prefer to exist between the two.

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I have an extensive history in sex work. I’ve worked as a nude model, a fetish model, a fetish worker, a call girl (agency and independent), and ultimately, extensively, as a courtesan (I prefer the term ‘whoretesan’), which I did for several years. I blogged my way through these stints as I struggled with the difficulty of living a double life.

Here I’m inserting a micro-FAQ, since I get a lot of questions about sex work.

When did you start?

I started in grad school, when I was in my late twenties.

What was it like the first time?

It was exhilarating.  Someday, I’ll tell you about it.

Were you ever scared?

Not really. Maybe I should have been, but I wasn’t.

Were you ever sexually abused as a child?

Nope, never.

Do you ever feel regret or shame?

If you’re asking me this question, then it’s safe to assume that you and I have very different worldviews. I don’t believe in shame or regret when it comes to sexual choices between consenting adults.

Did you ever feel exploited?

I’m a hard person to exploit. I generally felt like the power weighed heavily on my side.

Have you ever fallen in love with a client?

Yes.

Has a client ever fallen in love with you?

Yes.

How did you deal with it?

I compartmentalized the shit out of my emotions.  Sometimes it was easy, and sometimes it was excruciatingly difficult.

Have you stopped sex work?

I’ll always have the heart of a whore.

Where are your other blogs?

I’ve saved everything I’ve ever written.  Old blogs have been deleted and I’ve archived those posts privately.  This is the only blog I plan to keep up indefinitely. I’m not sure what I’ll do with those saved blog posts, but they’re important to me.  I can see myself evolving in them.

I’ve been pulling away from the sex work because of the influx of attention I’ve received, which I brought upon myself. One of these public flashes was an anonymous interview I did with Diane Sawyer in 2008. My mother recognized me, and when she did, I mentioned it on my blog. I didn’t think it would be an issue, but it was. And things got weird.

Also about me: I’ve launched a website with Kasia and a few others dedicated to haute porn or art porn or whatever you’d call the convergence of art and sex.  It’s called F/lthyGorgeousTh/ngs.

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Interview at Reverse Cowgirl.

Interview at Refinery29.  Reprinted in the Huffington Post here.

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My first blog was born in 2003, the second in 2004, the third in 2005, all closed for reasons of privacy. This is blog number four. Sometimes I need to take a break to regroup off-blog, but when I do, it’s only temporary.  I always start up again.

You can reach me at debauchette[at]gmail.com.