To procrastinate less. To enjoy more. To write. To run. To leave my marks.

[First part here.]
Before I go further, I should say that I watch porn. A lot of porn. I like porn. When I take issue with porn, it’s the quality I dislike, not the genre. I dislike the tedium, the predictability, the fake tans, the plasticky breasts, the baseball caps, the lack of [...]

To carry forward the theme of less-than-ideal client experiences, I can mention another as a segue. I was asked to visit a notoriously awful client by a booker who knew the challenge would interest me – my rate was raised to off-set the hassle I expected to enjoy. This client had a reputation [...]

I got way too high. I hadn’t smoked hash in years, but since I’ve been letting my guard down, forcibly, it felt well-timed. Plus, I have a fairly decadent history with this man, usually of the porn/whisky/cuntlick kind. Smokable resin fit in.
I usually avoid all forms of THC because it makes me turn [...]

I wrote this May 29, 2006:
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I just had carnal relations.
Technically, it was borne of spontaneity: we exchange a few words on a street corner while waiting for the light to change, and then he asks me out. Normally I get skittish, but this time I just say yes. I give him my email address and [...]

A designer once mentioned that she made a menstruation kit which included a variety of objects made of precious materials, among them a vibrator. I asked her about this, why she’d include a vibrator, and she said that studies have shown that sex actually relieves menstrual pain. And that makes sense: orgasms release [...]

Met some lovely people and, as a result, I’ve come across some great writing.
Calico (beautiful creature) has a great blog – very hot – which traces her experiences as a pro-domme.
May is an unusually articulate and thoughtful young man; his blog follows his experiences as a submissive and bisexual. Kinks are exciting to me [...]

I’ve been thinking about power relationships lately, maybe because I keep returning to this desire to make Matt beg. He’s so outwardly dominant, but there are moments…
He says things in passing that resonate for hours. “You should sit on my face,” he once said, three glasses deep into an evening. I thought [...]

“Paying for it” is an irrational taboo, as most taboos are. I assume it’s because we’re a particularly myopic society that rarely recognizes its own hypocrisy, a society that, to my mind, applies its un-nuanced thinking to capitalism (the American dream), and morality, and the places where sex and money meet. We profit [...]

sleepsex (i) and  sleepsex (ii)
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When I was going through puberty, I was able to lucid dream, to exert control over my own dreams. It started when I had the same nightmare three nights in a row and through that repetition I became aware within the dream that it wasn’t real. I can’t imagine [...]